When was the last time you did an
integrity check with yourself? I have been given another opportunity to live my best life possible. The morning sky was absolutely beautiful. As I gazed out the window, I could see the sky was filled with a beautiful blue and as the sun was getting ready to surge over the horizon, the white clouds began turning into glorious hues of peach, to orange to gold AND then it hit me. Not only did I awake to the amazing view out my window, but I also lingered in bed with the smell of a skunk wafting through the open windows. That's just how I became aware that I had fallen out of integrity with myself, AGAIN.
I remember, four and a half months ago completing an integrity makeover and.... It - really - felt - GREAT! My awareness was keen and intuitive, my feelings for myself were positive and optimistic. My past was a gold mine filled with connections with a path that was illuminated to show me how and where I developed my strengths. I thought I had been living a fabulous life with bumps along the way... that we each experience in our own way. I thought I was doing great, with my integrity......I keep my commitments to other people, I do what I say, I create terrific relationships with people, I make better food choices, I have fun doing things that have purpose and meaning....for our planet, out of kindness and generosity towards all people....sure the list goes on and on. Does yours? Well, STOP right there! I have fallen out of integrity with myself, AGAIN.
I said I was going to be a website moderator. Oh sure, I checked in every once in a while, hello....what type of commitment is that? Sure I wrote something, read some comments and thought what a terrific idea Dr. David Gruder had in bringing integrity to the fore-front, especially during an election year. I could give you wonderful excuses about how my life activities have gotten in the way of doing my moderating over the last four months... even though I don't use excuses. (..yeah, right..) I'd rather be honest by taking responsibility. (..and I have??) This is exactly where I have fallen out of integrity with myself. Okay, so here I am today recognizing I have fallen out of integrity with myself. I am feeling lousy, humiliation, and not very proud of my previous moderating skills. My integrity makeover that I completed last February is kicking-in with full force. I really love living a life with integrity. It feels good, I find joy in what I do, I have more energy, I am optimistic and yes, this is the real me, my authentic way of living.
So, what can I do to upgrade my integrity, get back on track and start living my best life possible? Since I have had an integrity makeover, I have the tools to get me back on track. The process is truly AMAZING. First, I recognize this realization of being less than a website moderator is what my issue is. I screwed-up. This is my wake-up call. I now am choosing to forgive myself and honor what I have just re-learned. I apologize and am sorry for the choices that I made of not being the best moderator I can truly be. I forgive myself in my heart-of hearts. I truly love myself and give thanks for having this opportunity to fall back INTO integrity with myself. I now take that huge sigh and congratulate myself for walking the talk again. I will be more mindful and keep an integrity watch on myself daily. I facilitate integrity makeovers and would be honored to teach you how to get back on track. Where have you fallen out of integrity with yourself? Look closer and discover something you would like to change about yourself. What is that thing? How do you want to start feeling each day? Do you want a better relationship with yourself?